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Volume VI number VIII

Jevon at 10In August I turned 40.

I'm now officially a cranky old fart (as apposed to just being grumpy and irritable for no good reason). Oh I know 40's not that old, but ask anyone between the ages of 5 and 15 and they'll tell you that they can't even imagine being 40.

Heck, I can't imagine being 40.

All of the signs of my advancing years are beginning to show up. I get agitated and shake my fist when kids in their hot cars (anything that's not a station wagon or a mini van) pass me. I don't like loud music blaring - unless it's my old fart music blaring. I'm finding gray hair on my chin, and am starting to complain about how things used to be when I was younger.

To make things worse, in ten years I'll be 50. Now that's scary considering only ten years ago I was 30 (and ten before that I was 20, and ten years before that I was a the goofy kid of 10 in the picture) and the world was still a great big sea of opportunity. My window of opportunity for ever being cool is pretty much officially closed. I'm going to have to resign myself to the fact I'm a nebbishy nerd, and will most likely remain one for the rest of my days.

Sad.

So very sad.

I don't feel old, which is all part of the great denial process us older people go through.

Jevon the Tall
August 2003

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